My cheeks hurt.

R and muffin had some spoiling ... Went to a pet store bought muffin lots of stuff. I was giggly through it all and my outfit was killer(I was happy).
He was sickeningly cute with muffin... I'm honestly amazed that he never had a child... I don't want to give him one. I'm just saying.

We went out and ate on south beach, I got relatively drunk-ish on a huge white Russian I felt I needed some... And wanted.

R was more... Like tender sorta. He bought flowers for me , he kissed me more than usual which he knows I'm all about.


My mother who's a terrible lady called when I was with r and asked if I was a prostitute... Fun nice lady , I know... I clicked on her twice it's just that sorta relationship with her.



-Chrissy

I got a puppy

my friends boyfriends dog had puppies.... hes 2 months

hes a Yorkie - Schipperke mix. hes a boy and i named him Muffin.

im ecstatically happy to have him.


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R and i patched things up....i let his bullshit slide.. i was walking up to where he lives and his assistant was too so i handed her the print outs of his profile...and my letter and she gave him it, i forget her exact words but i think flipped out more or less was how she said he reacted.

i had to realize i didn't like finding that, but im also not a saint myself....im just better at catching others.


he gave me 50$ the night i got muffin to buy him food ect. he gave me 100 today to start a bank account. and another 100 to take Muffin to the vet.....i dont know how much vet bills are hopefully i can cover it.


so at least there's some money coming out of him now.





-Chrissy

found R on Sugardaddyforme.com

that little piece of crap.

"active within: earlier today" WTF is that shit.

Im very hurt but its sorta like wtf, tell him i found him hes just going to wounder why i was on there to begin with, oh well i guess it doesn't matter....... fuck i guess i don't know him, my comforts lost now.

ill probably bring this up tonight..... or maybe ill just print out his page. knock on his door and leave the print out there...........im really rather hurt by this.

if anyone has a profile on that site i have his member and profile ID listed.....if youd like to see.

what did i expect, i should of expected this.


he held me while i cried! and to have the nerve to have a profile where sugardaddy is in the URL... when you have clearly made it clear that you dont want to financially spoil someone, fuck you. fuck you and your black card.


-Chrissy

Just a ramble, not sugar related.

Life, I'm learning.
Iv been on an antidepressant for about three months, it's doing wounderful things, I notice the difference dramatically. I wasn't sure how long exactly I was depressed but in Nov08 I had a terribly rough breakup with this guy who I had a crush on for several years but we were never single at the same time. The breakup shoved me into depression and never got better. Okay enough Ex talk, he was just brought up to explain a bit, before the breakup I probably would of benefitted from an antidepressant. My life has had alot of mostly family oriented issues...which has caused me a fair share of issues.


R.... Oh R.
We've been getting alot closer since I took him out of the SD catagory and into the BF catagory. I fell inlove with him lastnight, and he probably knows I fallen. He is a very smart man, i fessed up to knowing his real age because I told his assistant I knew his real age and later she called and voiced that she really thought I should let him know I know, I wasn't because we both agreed he might flip. But I did, having told him... Feels Lot better, that lie had placed a wall around me for various reasons. He didn't flip, he took it like... Well like R.

In bed later... Was when I fell for him. He held me close, talked about alot, about alot. I don't like to cry infront of people... But the convo broke me out into tears... He held me close the whole time... he kissed my forehead... He's the most supportive person iv ever known. He understands psychology very well too.
He isn't a big fan of kissing, so we don't kiss as much as I'd like.. I love to kiss and makeout... Even tho I was all sniffly from crying I grabbed him for a kiss, and more and more which lead to sex which was also very rewarding. I never call sex "making love" but I'd say this was. I'm probably going to make another blog for my life... Where I'll blab about R.

I refuse to say " I love you" first.... Partly because I'm not sure I can "love" him till I know he feels it for me.... And because it's only been like 3 months that iv known him.... But I have some strong emotions for him, grows each day.

He makes me laugh he makes me smile. He makes me tear up. He makes me scream in ecstacy.
He is also very attractive, looks great for 47. I look forward to him loosing the weight he's gained from his accident, he's just going to be that much more attractive.


-Chrissy

Shiney black amax card

R pulled out a fresh new black AMEX card... Pretty cool to know he has, I know I said I wouldn't update about him but just because.


-Chrissy.