update.

-waiting to get a call back from a job....want them to just call already.
-Friday lunch @ capital grille W. (umm need a name, for now just "J")..almost worried for..him? i don't have to time or tolerance for bullshit.
so, were see. he more or less fell on my plate from SA.com

-I still have my normal boyfriend, but things are "eh" at the moment. i don't know what im going to do, but im keeping him for now.

Thats about it.

-Chrissy

whats been up.

No more R, idk if I mentioned.
He was rediculas in retrospective but, there was some stuff I appreciated.
Then.
I fell in real love real easy with a guy who was really wounderful, beautiful, and sweet.
It was all very perfect, he was teaching me French even.
Anyway.
He's going to start college in Canada in January, so today were over...
Im keeping a positive view on it all but, it still does hurt a lot.
I plan on moving to Nyc no later than June 15 th 2011.
I'll be done by abt April/may with school for now. Have it all planned out, very very much. All by myself. I'll have my own place.
Nyc, is closer to Canada..but who knows. I hope, but am realistic.

Im tempted to pursue some sugar, but eh. Idk.
Suppose ill browse.

-Chrissy

Dull/absent

Well, my profiles weren't getting very decent replies, so iv suspended them. I plan to re-launch em all new but, it's like why when I'm so cute am I enable to snag something decent and worthwhile, I honestly don't know why.

Anyway Im with R again, he gives money on a regular basis. Things are hot and cold with him, one day I'm smitten, the next moment some little thing was said or done and I then don't know why I'm wasting me time.


That's about it.




--Chrissy

facebook

http://www.facebook.com/people/Chrissy-Sugar/100000359925612


its very empty...but ill work on that...........later.

R's been taking up more of my time. I think he likes muffins company.

Briefly spoke to mr.law. He's not around often but he's been my goal. He's very sexual he's looking for someone to fulfil him sexually. He's fairly young. Blablabla. Were see

talking to mr....pen, yea I think I named him pen. I'm into him for looks an he understands the sugar deal... Clearly which is so good when they understand it.

Emailing 2 new ones but pretty priliminary stuff

My cheeks hurt.

R and muffin had some spoiling ... Went to a pet store bought muffin lots of stuff. I was giggly through it all and my outfit was killer(I was happy).
He was sickeningly cute with muffin... I'm honestly amazed that he never had a child... I don't want to give him one. I'm just saying.

We went out and ate on south beach, I got relatively drunk-ish on a huge white Russian I felt I needed some... And wanted.

R was more... Like tender sorta. He bought flowers for me , he kissed me more than usual which he knows I'm all about.


My mother who's a terrible lady called when I was with r and asked if I was a prostitute... Fun nice lady , I know... I clicked on her twice it's just that sorta relationship with her.



-Chrissy

I got a puppy

my friends boyfriends dog had puppies.... hes 2 months

hes a Yorkie - Schipperke mix. hes a boy and i named him Muffin.

im ecstatically happy to have him.


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R and i patched things up....i let his bullshit slide.. i was walking up to where he lives and his assistant was too so i handed her the print outs of his profile...and my letter and she gave him it, i forget her exact words but i think flipped out more or less was how she said he reacted.

i had to realize i didn't like finding that, but im also not a saint myself....im just better at catching others.


he gave me 50$ the night i got muffin to buy him food ect. he gave me 100 today to start a bank account. and another 100 to take Muffin to the vet.....i dont know how much vet bills are hopefully i can cover it.


so at least there's some money coming out of him now.





-Chrissy

found R on Sugardaddyforme.com

that little piece of crap.

"active within: earlier today" WTF is that shit.

Im very hurt but its sorta like wtf, tell him i found him hes just going to wounder why i was on there to begin with, oh well i guess it doesn't matter....... fuck i guess i don't know him, my comforts lost now.

ill probably bring this up tonight..... or maybe ill just print out his page. knock on his door and leave the print out there...........im really rather hurt by this.

if anyone has a profile on that site i have his member and profile ID listed.....if youd like to see.

what did i expect, i should of expected this.


he held me while i cried! and to have the nerve to have a profile where sugardaddy is in the URL... when you have clearly made it clear that you dont want to financially spoil someone, fuck you. fuck you and your black card.


-Chrissy

Just a ramble, not sugar related.

Life, I'm learning.
Iv been on an antidepressant for about three months, it's doing wounderful things, I notice the difference dramatically. I wasn't sure how long exactly I was depressed but in Nov08 I had a terribly rough breakup with this guy who I had a crush on for several years but we were never single at the same time. The breakup shoved me into depression and never got better. Okay enough Ex talk, he was just brought up to explain a bit, before the breakup I probably would of benefitted from an antidepressant. My life has had alot of mostly family oriented issues...which has caused me a fair share of issues.


R.... Oh R.
We've been getting alot closer since I took him out of the SD catagory and into the BF catagory. I fell inlove with him lastnight, and he probably knows I fallen. He is a very smart man, i fessed up to knowing his real age because I told his assistant I knew his real age and later she called and voiced that she really thought I should let him know I know, I wasn't because we both agreed he might flip. But I did, having told him... Feels Lot better, that lie had placed a wall around me for various reasons. He didn't flip, he took it like... Well like R.

In bed later... Was when I fell for him. He held me close, talked about alot, about alot. I don't like to cry infront of people... But the convo broke me out into tears... He held me close the whole time... he kissed my forehead... He's the most supportive person iv ever known. He understands psychology very well too.
He isn't a big fan of kissing, so we don't kiss as much as I'd like.. I love to kiss and makeout... Even tho I was all sniffly from crying I grabbed him for a kiss, and more and more which lead to sex which was also very rewarding. I never call sex "making love" but I'd say this was. I'm probably going to make another blog for my life... Where I'll blab about R.

I refuse to say " I love you" first.... Partly because I'm not sure I can "love" him till I know he feels it for me.... And because it's only been like 3 months that iv known him.... But I have some strong emotions for him, grows each day.

He makes me laugh he makes me smile. He makes me tear up. He makes me scream in ecstacy.
He is also very attractive, looks great for 47. I look forward to him loosing the weight he's gained from his accident, he's just going to be that much more attractive.


-Chrissy

Shiney black amax card

R pulled out a fresh new black AMEX card... Pretty cool to know he has, I know I said I wouldn't update about him but just because.


-Chrissy.

Mr.B- no show

Either he had a terrible accident on his way over or he just flakes out. We spoke in the AM I got dressed and ready he was suposed to show. But never did, nor has he contacted me in any way.

Ohwell, what a waste of time.

I had a good day anyway my niece turned 12 today, I hadn't seen her in forever she turned 12 and she was like all big and stuff. Last time I saw her she was way littler.

2 of my sisters came over and my nefew. Who's 3, and a great little crazy kid. And my sisters bf too.


Now I'm gunna go out w/R so atleast my day was eventful.

Can't believe Mr.B flakes on me like that but I half expected it.


-Chrissy

A quick R post,

R can make me extremely happy and comfortable and then there's times when everything just gets tense-ish and awkward. The awkward tense moments are the ones that keep me from being able to actually fully connect with him. anyway im not really going to keep updating about R unless anyone would like to keep knowing. if so let me know.
oh he mentioned my weight, he did it nicely but id of preferred if he didn't mention it at all, he said i look healthier than when he meet me, and was like yea you might of gained like 3lbs, more like 10 but i wasn't gunna tell him that. My weight fluctuates alot, and lately iv been eating like a ravenous beast so its no surprise why i weight like 120 now.


-Chrissy

over load

Sat: Date w/R probably sleep over till Sunday and leave

Mon: Something scheduled with Mr.B but he is a but, i hope hes a serious suitor but i doubt it sometimes, hes offering me a monthly of 30K.

Wens: The guy i was supposed to be getting a spa day from(were call him "Stock") emailed asking if im free Wednesday. im thinking ill defiantly need the massage, but im very unsure since i already feel my weeks a bit hectic.

And im also waiting for a package, iv been talking very naughty to this one potential, some guy who's like one of the first people who ever messaged me on a sugar site, but he hasn't moved very quickly so i barely consider him, besides the fact that i find him incredibly attractive. the package consist of 3sextoys...lol. that will be fun. Ill call him "Pen"

I don't like to lose

I missed R. I have a date to see him Saturday.

I like him on a steady basis, of all the type of guys in Miami I like him a considerable amount, he frusterated me when he didn't fulfil my sugar desires, which is why I decided to keep him,(basically as a bf) and get a sugar daddy. Mr.Law resurfaced were still very on, he wants to see me on cam first then the meet will be planned and if chemistry is right and he's not obnoxious that'll probably be it... Atleast I hope so.

I don't think it's so bad to be back w/R. I called him anyway so I put us back together. I need something warm that feels nice and when I want to be held and feel cared for he'll be my guy.


-Chrissy

No more R

He broke it off with me, as a sugar daddy he sucked, it wasn't what he wanted he had no intention in being financially supportive, he just wanted a girlfriend.

It did hurt, and when the time came, i sorta wanted him back.....i just get attached easily.



I canceled a day i had planned for Thursday with an unnamed potential, i was going to get a spa day too so would of been nice but whatever, wasn't much into the guy anyway.

Fri- im supposed to meet up with Mr.B.....but were see.



-Chrissy

mini-update

"R" isn't dumped yet, but hes also not in the state.

Im taking this semester off to figure things out.

Talked to this one potential offering 10,000 a month,ill name him "Mr.Law" sounded like a great deal and he is pretty young,a lawyer. but i haven't heard from him in a few days....maybe hes busy? maybe not.

Talking to another potential who ill name. "Mr.B" im not sure how confident i am that hes serious, or a serious potential....but were see, iv talked to him for awhile every so often even before "R". Hes increased his amount 3x's now...i think he really wants me as his sugar. but.....again i needa wait and see and find out if hes serious and can seriously drop the cash he talks about.


-Chrissy

Update

Well not too much is new, havent completly broken it off with R I don't know why... He's fucking wasting my time. He's leavin mon to newyork, coming back in about a week. I have been talking to a few, a guy offering 10k a month is in the lead of potentials, I wanna find out quickly if he true because that will help me out big time.

In non sugar related news lifes sorta crazy for me, I have to move out really soon because I can't take it anymore. I'm most likely not starting the next coming up semster... For a few reasons mainly I'm changing my direction in life, I'm probably going to change colleges and major in fashion.


-Chrissy

Decisions

As far as R is concerned, I need to see a change somewhere, hes not forking over the money amounts he should, nor have i received anything oh so fantastic. I dont have time to sit and wait, i see some potential, but if hes not going to hold up his end of the deal its not worth it.
I should know soon... as soon as i get an answer to something hes thinking about, if his answers no, then my answer to him is no. If he says yes, then well be better keep me saying yes.

I'm so beyond done toying around & wasting my time


-Chrissy